I've should have know that if i were to hold on to those memories , the one that will be hurting the most will be me. But i can't stop myself from remembering our memories especially when it seems like everywhere around me has our memories..
Everywhere i've been to reminds me of him, the bus stops , the walk , etc.
They just bring me back to the past. It somehow hurts, even though i often say it doesn't bother me at all.
Although i always say that i'm okay when deep down i'm not at all.
Yesterday when i was feeling very uncomfortable , i started to miss him even more.
I missed how i could actually rely and sa jiao to him , get his attention , get him to dote me even more, get him to treat me like a princess.
I miss having someone to rely on..
However , I've chose to break up with him, it's my own decision , my choice.
I shouldn't regret it.. No matter how much it hurts , i also cannot regret , i won't look back.
Just hope that after a long period of time separated , when we both actually think through between our problems , and maybe start over again.. I don't know .. Let see if there's still fate between us or not..
Prolly there will be and we will really start all over again.. Arguments really made me scared , made me afraid to speak up , arguments often sours our relationship .. And it's hurting to hold on too .. I'm not those kind of girl who can always swallow the pride and give in.. Sigh.
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