Why do you have so much to prove ?

Hey all , obviously this is a failed shot of acting cute, and yeah i'm using w20 it's a temporary phone only la :( lol.
It had been so long since i actually had a proper update about my life.
On 25th Feb , i met this awfully annoying guy who made me fall in love with him so crazily, he's no other than Myran Brandon Pereira <3.
Recently i got closer with my dearest bbgs , @Meltedmyheart &@Cindeelovedieu & of course my whole clique.
I'm really proud to say i really love my life right now , even though i hate it sometimes because things doesn't go my way , and also because i'm short of cash always.
Damn :( I should start learning to save up , before i constantly become pokkai girl.
In school , my chemistry marks are getting better or should i say overall , every subject of mine are actually getting better,other than combined humanities.
pft , i can't seem to score in Poa & combined humanities , :'(

I guess after entering and leaving relationships a couple of times recently , i really wanna settle down.
But to be said is easier than to be done, so i just hope to make the best out of every single thing right now.
And i will have to learn how to keep you by my side no matter what , for you are really way too important to me. 16 years , i supposed i've lost enough, it's those small things in my life that gave me the strength to move on with life and not to whine and think negatively about life. Words of encouragements , quotes , friends , family , relationships , they all inspired me and gave me another meaning about life.
I'm learning how to compromise and be understanding and trusting all over again, because through out so long, i've been through so much dramas till i could literally write a story about my life which i've decided to, to write it out on my birthday to let people know who i am.For those who already knew who i am , to know me better , and to people who don't know me yet judging me.

I also realized , people tend to try so hard just to prove themselves. I seriously don't see a reason why also.
A couple of my friends they have been trying so hard to prove themselves ? I guess i gotta admire them , because if i were them , i would be emotionally physically drained. Like totally.
I'm starting to hang out alone in school , it's not because i do not have friends in school or something along that line , it's just that i feel not much people in this school whom i could really trust and speak about my troubles to. How i hope that i was in the same school as my babies <3 That would be wonderful because they don't like pretending games , they judge only after they know that person or both side of the story , they stand by me no matter what. All the time whenever i'm with them , i'm always laughing and smiling so happily. Aw , i really love them alot.

And as i looked back at my past and then here i am realizing how much i've grown , how scary human change can be , who are my true friends , who really mean it when they say they will be by me. Yes and once again , i'm proud to say that i'm really thankful for having my boyfriend and also my dearest girlfriends. After being together with him for 1month plus , really strange , but i found myself giving in and learning to compromise, he made me fear that i would lose him , i really cherish him and us. I don't want "us" to become "you" and "i" already , i want it to be US always , not you and i, and i'm finally okay with being us , prolly is because i really love him too much already. And i know that i don't understand love , but i guess Brandon is gonna show me the definition of love. :) I want 250211 to really go far, i'm getting sick and tired of breakups and heartbreaks , and being guilty. Alright , i guess i'm going to end this post right here. Toddles.