Hi , my name is YvetteHYJ & i'm Single ! . Through out my life i've learned to cherish , not to sidetrack from life, stand up even when we fall , don't ever give others a chance to laugh at you.
More info of me @ " Sometimes it's easier to say you don't care instead of trying to explain every reason you do.
I guess i'm the last fool standing.
I don't want to cherish anymore.
Everytime , i cherish something , it will always lead to disappointment.
我也是人，我也会累的
I have my own feelings , my own thoughts too.
And my thoughts are running wild.
Doubt you don't even remember this
We drifted .
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I as a human , only wants to be understand & noticed.
But i ain't getting all this from all of my friends.
I also would like to be noticed at all time.
I would like to be understand.
I would like to find someone really who will understand and notice me/my feelings all the time.
I don't want to tell people directly that i;m unhappy then they will notice.
I like to bottle things up/
Sometimes it's suffocating .
But what can i do.
Why do i always put other people before myself.
Why must i always be the one who self-sacrifice .
Why can't it be other people.
Tzemin is always the best .
She never fails to not notice me, never fails to not understand me.
But , everyone has their own life.
I cant possible bother every single one of my friends when i'm down.
Sometimes , when i feel so down , all i want is only a hug , or something that will comfort me .
I'm really tired of holding on to my feelings.
Everytime , i hold on to something.
It's always one sided.
Always coming from me..
I'm not as happy as i'm known as.
I also will feel unhappy.
But i always swallow it.
Only mention to those i wanna.
I only want someone who can understand me & notice my feelings at all times.
& i will do that too.
But i guess , no one is meant to be.
So sorry if you can't take what i'm writing.
It's what in my mind now.
I done everything you like ,
I tried to be the best.
I didn't do things you don't like.
I kept quiet when you got angry.
I've been there when you're there.
But my dear, do you even notice my change in mood ?
I really hope you would be here right now , by my side.
I need a hug now.
I can no longer rely on her.
I have to rely on my own now.
I'm a loner now ,
Not only now , in future , it will be too.
I don't know what's wrong with me this month ,
It's a total moody month for me.
Kept thinking negatively ,
I don't what the fuck gone wrong with me.
Seriously .
Fml fml fml fml fml.
I really lost at what should i do..
I hate my life..
Seriously.
It sucks ttm.
Im not happy ,
Not at all..........
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I'm stubborn and i know that.
I'm vulnerable , i knew it.
I need to sweat now asap.
To stop myself from thinking this way.
One day , i swear , i would go mia from this world.
I'm not strong enough to face all those twist and turn of life.
I'm not perfect, so ain't you.