Blabberings

I could see that mommy is still angry with me.
I don't like her ignoring me.
I left a note for her , apologising.
Obviously she doesn't care.
:/
Oh, how i wish baby was here..
I think i'm crying soon.
Sigh.
To my mommydear ,
I know you don't read my blog , because you don't know how to use the comp.
Lol.
But mommy , i didn't know it will hurt your heart so much when i hurt myself.
Really.. All along i thought you don't care about me.
I guess , i was wrong.
Though i often complain how much i hate your nagging , i hate your constant scolding
& all those nonsense assumption , and also your negative comments.
But w/o all this , i feel so awkward ..
As though you really forsake me.
I totally regret already ..
Just stop ignoring me hao bu hao :'(
I really hate the feeling of being ignore....
Often we argue, i always win.
But this time .. it's not even an argument , a cold war.
You win the war already :/
Why is it still carrying on still ..
Yesterday night .. i heard you coughing , so badly.
My heart ,aches.
I wanna go over and ask if you're okay.
But i know you won't even care , instead you will just say : If i die , you more happy what , no one care.
:/
Really feeling so bad now ..
How i wish bb was here...

Edit/}
Found this @ lovefatedestiny.com
Think it's kinda cool , so yeah.
Here it goes :

Read this "HATE letter". It is so funny and creative. This is a loveletter from a boy to a girl.... However, the girl's father does not like him and want them stop their relationship......and so..the boy wrote this letter to the girl..he knows that the girl's father will definitely read this letter..

1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself.
11 If we were married, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help me.
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this is the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend"
So bad!! However, before handing over the letter to the girl, the boy told the girl to
"READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning-only to read 1.3.5.7.9.11.13.15.17.19.21.23.25. (Odd Numbers) So..Please try reading it again! It's so smart & sweet.... :)
*i've made those lines that are meant to be read in red :)*